Friday, March 25, 2011

cell group meeting ended not long ago.

just done washing up and packing the stuffs.

kinda drained now, considering i've band studio session tomorrow morning.

i sure hope i can wake up on time.

today i finally came to terms that there may never be a "next time" when it comes to the word "us".

well, i guess i've learnt how to let go and believe, and hope, that everything will turn out just fine.

i know i may sound so contradicting in just a few days time, but i guess that's why life had been pretty miserable.

i finally learnt how to make my life better.

i'd be lying if i said you aren't part of me anymore; you always are and always will be.

but i guess i've to live without you for now.

God gave me a life to live, with or without you.

i can't let God down, i can't forsake my life yet, i can't let myself down.

but i finally see again, i finally see that i don't have to carry this burden all alone anymore.

i've learnt to see what i still have with me instead of what i've lost.

i've learnt to appreciate life while you were around.

i've learnt that not all good things last.

i've learnt that you'll always stay at the back of my mind, lingering on.

i guess that's life for me now.

i guess i've to move on.

i just hope that we won't drift apart anymore.

as much as i want to be "a part", i don't wanna risk ending up "apart".

you told me you can't promise me anything, but i don't expect anything.

i just wanna see you through your toughest of times and carry your burdens whenever i can.

but i know i can't do all that, so i'll stand by the sidewalk and wait.

i'm not sure if you still love me, i kinda dread the answer.

but i still love you.

promise me you'll be happier day after day, eat your meals, and take enough rest.

just remember i'm always around.

please be happy, i hope to see you smile when we ever talk again.

i miss the good old times.

stay happy.

ciaos.