Sunday, February 27, 2011
broken heart, broken body.
i really love this picture, because i fulfilled one of my life's wishes- to watch the sunset with you.
blogging when it's already past midnight have became somewhat a habit for me already.
i wonder if I'm conscientious or are there too many "what if"s in life to consider.
today had been both enjoyable and tormenting for me.
went back to Dunman Sec at 10.14am.
caught up with some of my closest friends whom i hadn't seen for some time.
stayed around until past 1pm and headed for lunch with JiaHui, Calvin and David at Freshness Burger.
Met up with Sheryl Teo and Daryle, headed to Expo for service thereafter.
service was very, very hyped up.
i guess that always happen when it's a memorable time to celebrate in City Harvest.
final service at Expo was filled with anointing.
i can truly feel the prescience of God in the hall.
i feel my fire for Christ re-ignited, renewed.
that did lighten my heart a bit, at least as compared to the past few days.
pastor Kong's right i guess- we should use His strength when ours fails us.
"Be strong.. I am with you." Haggai 2:4
i feel tired, physically and mentally stretched to my limit.
my body is failing me, so is my mind.
i tried to fend off the infirmities on my own for the past 10days, but I've seemingly came to a dead-end.
i think i need a doctor real soon.
flu, cough and fever doesn't sound like a good combination to me.
I'm not quite sure what's making me so moody and downcasted lately.
insomnia has started seeping into my life too.
i found myself sleeping at 4am yesterday, and countless nights tossing in my bed.
i need a rest, please.
i don't know how long my body can keep up, i know my mind is dying on me.
the intensity of this test is crippling.
i wonder how long will God test my determination, i wonder how long can i be tested.
and my body isn't doing anything to help neither.
it had only been 2 weeks and i'm losing my mind, i wonder how much more sanity is left in me.
i wonder if you know how i feel, i wonder if you know how much i miss you.
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
i need to catch some rest now.
ciaos.
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